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I've been experiencing difficulty in breathing lately - maybe in the last week. I guess, it has happened enough for me to notice and I think, I should get myself to a doctor for evaluation.

From what I've researched on the knowledgeable internet - breathing difficulties can be described in several different ways - You may be short of breath, unable to take a deep breath, gasping for air, or feel like you are not getting enough air. My nose feels a little blocked. So far, no chest pain, no bluish lips, fingers or fingernails (and that's why I'm lacquer-free). I'm trying my best to be conscious of the symptoms.

It may just be due to an impending illness, emotional distress or it could be something more serious like heart disease (my late paternal grandma had this condition and died from this chronic condition). There are many more possibilities. I like to be prepared for the worst (strangely) so I told a colleague who is also a friend about this and joked that the pre-empt is in case I die suddenly. I hope I didn't scare her. The other person I told is a close friend. Not telling other friends does not mean they are not important - just that I don't want unnecessary attention and worrying. Of cos, if you are my regular fan (of this blog), well, you will be in the know (by now). =P

This year hasn't been easy for me, especially in the emotional department - mostly negative. A mixture of frustration, disappointment and stress I reckon. However, I'm very certain I'm mentally healthy (lol). I've been raving non-stop about needing a relaxing vacation and I honestly mean a solid good one. The negative energies simply need to be discharged. Writing is one of the ways I discharge feelings, whether good or bad. I find it helpful. I usually feel better after penning what's cooped inside. My two girls are priceless therapy - I always feel happy seeing them. Cuddling them is always comforting. Can't imagine life without them! Laughter helps too but unfortunately I'm not getting sufficient dosage.

At this point, I'm breathing normally again. :)